This is my Life.
Read and you'll know what is going on....
Huixian,cL. i'm 20.
i hate being mistreated
i hate cats and lizards and snails
i love fried rice and
coffee especially ice mocha
BABY
jieying
patrina
peiling
xiuling
yangzi
liangtai
September 2008
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December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
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June 2009
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last weekends worked for nokia
was quite fun and partly because its a commission base
so i wouldnt spent time rotting there
hehs next week also working but i;m not sure
for the subsequent weekends still required or not
ytd caught the movie - hotel for dogs
all about dogs lah, rescuing stray dogs and provide em'
a home that'd probably take em' in
wells but i still din really had a liking to animals
esp cats. ugly and horrid
ive been leading a carefree life
gotta start smth new and decend already...
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today is SAD?
. . . . .ANGRY?
. . . . .DISAPPOINTED?
. . . . .STRESSED?
. . . . .HECTIC?
. . . . .MEANINGLESS?
TOTALLY NEGATIVE. WHATEVER I CAN THINK OF
HAIS IT SUCKS BECAUSE SMTH PISSED ME OFF AND WHEN I;VE RIGHTS AND LOGIC
I BECAME RUDE?
HEY
IM NOT RUDE
IS JUST THAT WHEN IM ANGRY I SAID THOSE WORDS FLIPPANTLY
I NEVER MEAN IT BUT NEITHER DO I DUN MEAN IT BECAUSE
I CAN FEEL ANGER ARISING
I ONLY EAT ONE PATHETIC BAH ZHANG IN THE NOON WHEN I WOKE UP
SOMEMORE WITH MY HEAD STUFFING WITH ALOT OF DREAMS, UNCLEAR
I DUNNO WHAT DID I DREAMT OF, JUST DUN FEEL LIKE GETTING OUT OF BED
I AM SO DAMN STARVED AND FAMISHED
ANYBODY KNOWS HOW DEPRESSING ISSIT TO GET HUNGRY WHEN
YOU;RE ALSO ANGRY AT THE SAME TIME?
THERES NO ROOM FOR ME TO ANALYSE WHAT SORT OF WORDS AND SENTENCE
I;D COME OUT WITH
BUT THAT DOESN;T MEAN I;M WRONG
SOMEBODY OUGHT TO KNOW WHATS GOING ON
IN ANYWAYS WORK STARTS TMR AND I HOPE THINGS ARE FINE, HOPEFULLY PLEASE
HAIS...
Hais..
hais.
blame who......?
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relieved quite a large amount of stress ytd
yea im talking about my assignment, finally, gheez.
that would be my last assignment for dip alr
all done now (:
ytd went amk hub again and went into arcade
with her again as usual
that place averagely spent 50 to 70 percent of cash in our pockets
walau also dun understand why are we so addicted
to the game machines =.=
everytime it goes lidat after many attempts,
me: dun catch alr lah invest so much money but only get one small toy
she: nvm, just 2more dollar, go and change money quick i sit here
me: how many 2 dollars you want
she: just the last try lor
me: i ran alot of times alr leh the bear bear so unwilling to come down
she: can one, faster go if not ppl take away, we alr spend so much ....
me:okay lor bear bear drop then who's taking it home?
she: err ....
then the conversation carry on untill smth dropped
finally contented but on another hand grumble for such expensive toy hehs
but next week can hardly meet up i think
cuz both of us working
and then working days dun compromise still
nvm, cuz i;m preparing a birthday in april
details cannot say here
ahahaha
oh that day went www very fun
with jy and sq along
go again yea? we commonly loved one particular ride there
and will probably set up jy to take that alone next time
haha
ever since joyce's bday my stomach is getting weird and weak omg Omg OMG...
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i dun get this, that why some pple feels irritated to stay
with someone that doesnt pack her stuffs
its not THAT messy okay i dun understand the freaking idea,
since you couldnt stand the sight of it then dun open that wardrobe
as simple as that. you could be an ass if you dun get it?
a house is a accommodation, why youve to clean it everyday if you feel clean enough to rest your head
you like to clean then do it everyday but dun bother other ppl;s room
hais stop your naggings and it'll be fine
you wont know that its a pain in the neck to hear pple nag
again and again over the same things
fuck. end of this topic. so dumb
i still left with qs and bc assignments
deadline's end of mid march, very very soon..
i must finish it all hopefully by next week so ive time to do other things
upcoming next is to quickly work
most prob will still be studying but haven make up my mind
Tourism or Faculty of Law?
hais vexed, ive no hair to let down?
i think reccently somebody also feel so frustated
i dunno what happened to her but she seems down
anyway if she really needs someone to confide i think it wouldnt be me
so well, .....
somebody help me do assignments can... i dun wanna crack my head.
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a very long post
wednesday was a hectic day
i woke up in the morning like some ants in the wok
frantically rushed home and headed down to town for my second interview
GOSH! i nearly ruined up because i'm late
and then keep them waiting
luckily wasnt too unforgivable, i know its horrid
grr whatever. anyway its over
hais i sweated the hell out'of me, fuck.
as usual got class that nyte, rather presentation though
i went, for the sack of that stupid ass 20 marks thingy
oh wells its not smth i;m confident at
and i didnt had any chances to even take a glance and practise for once
goddamn how do i fair?
dun wanna think about it, just once and all, then done
i;m so in bad weather couldnt be bothered
hais frustrated lately, i wonder why
i;m mad at myself, everything;s like fuckingly dun go the easier way out
and my temper;s out of control, its horrible
i blew my top for venting anger
but then, things dun get any better, it got worsened instead
i made a promise to someone that i;d change
i tried but its not effectively changing
i was attentively listening to one of my classmates
presenting on Effective Interpersonal Relations Skills
i think he sounded quite logically right
ive to knock some sense into myself even im very unreluctant
hais forget it, forget it
enough of all these, its totally crazy
yesterday was peaceful, only went amk to meet her
we caught a movie, Marley and Me
ohh very nice and touching one, the Labrador;s the soul in it
so naughty and mischievous but then what a cheerful pet
imagine the whole world turns their back on you
and the only living thing is there, two words- SO ADORABLE
i;m not any animal person but it makes it so warm when your dog
stands by you and somemore wouldnt grumble and blow her top?
hahaha unbelievable
i met an old classmate in sec school at the bus stop before i went home
i was kind of in a state of shock when i saw him
quite expected but didnt expect such big change
i;m glad he told me he;s finally happier now
because he make it to the world that this is HIM
i felt totally how he did, we didnt had courage to accept the discrimination
of those sickening and retard pple that makes a big deal of it
i know its very very pressurizing at the beginning
but as you begin to realise and know what you really wanted
it is actually only yourself you have to convince
yea and now i;m considered living as myself, and happily
ohh retards please enlighten your world that humans live a thousand kind
and WE're happy, elated and joyfully enjoying lives of not being like YOUR kind
thank god
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I Believe
你不说话的时候 也是一种
其实你在回应我
没有回应的时候 只不过
正好你在电话中
I Believe 语音信箱的沉默
也是一种
其实你在倾听我
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just another day
today i went cycling with khim, yz and joyce
i think this is the first time ever?
we haven hang out for quite sometime alr
cycled pass our secondary school
it seems just yesterday but we've all grown up now
school days are so memorable(:
ohh,
ps: i lost my previous html so chatbox also gone
i dunno issit right or wrong
after making a decision i began to think
perhaps its too late maybe theres no room for other alternatives
i just hope it stops aching me
after awhile...
possible?
i;m still using the mug she gave me
still drinking nescafe in it
still hugging all my babies
still shed a tear when she doesn;t understands me
i am too harsh
i think i talked nonsence
i caused a heart to break
i ought to do some reflections in my stupid self
i can't think anymore...tell me an answer please?
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